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(For those whom wish to respond to this journal entry... please.. watch what you say... I know it's just a movie... I know that movies are different from reality... and for those who think they know me... and wish to try and correct me.. dammit... (you know who you are) it just really shows that you don't know.. and that all your efforts in the past did nothing but inslt with the way you say it... yah.. you know who you are)...
I just saw Memento... really a great film... but as soon as I began to think like lenny... and understanding his pain and anxieties... damn.. it reminded me of the ones I have... he and I are different though.. however... we wake up hoping the day t be good.. when it just ends up being bad.. though his moments.. the whole movie was in a time spand of two days... my goes forever.. and it forever remains the same... hmm it just it bugs me... I feel a sort of emptiness about it... I feel the pain he has.. not being able to have the ability to hold the good memories... forever are bowls remain empty really... it just depresses me... how dreadful each day becomes.. another difference between he and I is the sad fact that he can awaken to a new moment and have the potential to have a moment of happiness... though.. unlike me... my moments only get from bad to worse... just like I.. he can be decieved very easily... as well... so yeah.. thats about it.. and there is more too... but really.. I forgot what they were.. yet lenny has the tattoos on his body to remind him, pictures, notes... I on the other hand have that eternal sense of emptiness... hmmm...
Again.. if you (the reader) wish to comment.. honestly.. I can't stop you.. but please.. I've already had a thrashing about this because a very good friend of mine remains to be.. kinda ignorant about how I'd feel about what words I'd hear that would come straight from his mouth... so if you wish to say something.. and you might think Id accept it being offensive.. or above all.. even if you yourself would think of it being offensive.. give a reason why explaing to me that what your saying is good and you mean well... okay...
I just saw Memento... really a great film... but as soon as I began to think like lenny... and understanding his pain and anxieties... damn.. it reminded me of the ones I have... he and I are different though.. however... we wake up hoping the day t be good.. when it just ends up being bad.. though his moments.. the whole movie was in a time spand of two days... my goes forever.. and it forever remains the same... hmm it just it bugs me... I feel a sort of emptiness about it... I feel the pain he has.. not being able to have the ability to hold the good memories... forever are bowls remain empty really... it just depresses me... how dreadful each day becomes.. another difference between he and I is the sad fact that he can awaken to a new moment and have the potential to have a moment of happiness... though.. unlike me... my moments only get from bad to worse... just like I.. he can be decieved very easily... as well... so yeah.. thats about it.. and there is more too... but really.. I forgot what they were.. yet lenny has the tattoos on his body to remind him, pictures, notes... I on the other hand have that eternal sense of emptiness... hmmm...
Again.. if you (the reader) wish to comment.. honestly.. I can't stop you.. but please.. I've already had a thrashing about this because a very good friend of mine remains to be.. kinda ignorant about how I'd feel about what words I'd hear that would come straight from his mouth... so if you wish to say something.. and you might think Id accept it being offensive.. or above all.. even if you yourself would think of it being offensive.. give a reason why explaing to me that what your saying is good and you mean well... okay...
Bleh
I guess I'm back.. yeah.. I am... wait.. well... no I'm not.
And so...
I've decided to come back to this place.. I'm alot stronger of a person now... so.. I would be able to tolerate other people bullshit since I was able to rid myself of my own.. *Steps back through the Dorrs of DA... claps hands in one loud smack...* Let the madness begin.
Empty floating thoughts
You know those days when one comes to realize the future ahead of themselves… however… the thinking process is too much for myself to even explain… so here I find myself... writing this in my journal… to get a thought out of you... the reader… and though… I wouldn't say all there is to say... because what if... you know if certain information could fall in "wrong hands"… hmmm… here I am listening to my music… and whatever it may be… my anime soundtracks... as much as my Drum n Bass… even a little trance… with some underground hip hop… doing N O T H I N G with myself… Gawd..
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... Returned I have
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aww..memento is one of the greatest films out there. sure, its confusing the first couple times you watch it but ya know...you catch on eventually.
don't be depressed because you put yourself in lenny's position silly... he's just a fictional character and although you may be able to relate to him on certain levels, you must understand that the line between reality and fiction are thin, and you're just at the borderline. i've realized through all the thorough comments you leave, and all your work, that you are JUST like me. you feel things tenfold, and yes, even the littlest splinter of things hurt soo much...but, like you, i guess i have just learnt to accept that as me...a part of me. i understand the grief you might endure, but you have to focus on the positive side of things always, you know? look to the sun :)